Sense of Denial

from Soft War by John Ludi and Greg Kutcher (as Soft War)

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lyrics

I am in free fall and obsession,
I am a fool who knows not what to do.
Hear my silent pained confession,
the one who could not find his way to you.

Me, I'm just an echo
of the man I longed to be.
So far away, a stranger in so many ways.
A fading rumor, an empty phrase.

I'll put you off until tomorrow
and hope that some chance for us remains.
But that future has grown hollow,
choked by regrets that slowly stake their claim.

You have got my number,
you know, the one you never call.
My image fades, I've never held your smiling face...
now you're aglow in a distant place.

(C) This sense of denial, the roads I'll never walk again.
Our funeral, my trial, my hopes all bruised and bound and chained.

I'll wallow in inept confusion,
and pray for time to take me away
from my excuses and conclusions...
wasted years full of empty days.

We just never happened.
Nowhere is the nothing that we shared,
just hollow space, an unlit candle,
an empty vase on a table love never graced.

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from Soft War, released February 19, 2008
Words-John
Music-Greg
Greg-Guitars.
John-Vox, Bass, Keys, Fake Drums.

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John Ludi Madison, Wisconsin

John Ludi is a musician/singer-songwriter with a wide array of influences and lyrical interests who was "Indie" before the term even existed. Working outside of the music industry by choice has given Ludi the ability to release songs of a level of lyrical depth that are anathema to the minds of the "suits". Ludi lives off-grid in a yurt in the woods of WI and will "fight the power" til he dies. ... more

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